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"I’m scared to get close and I hate being alone. I long for that feeling to not feel at all. The higher I get, the lower I’ll sink. I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim." — Can You Feel My Heart, BMTH (via silencedpain)

Tuesday / 2,002 notes

distant relative at family event: It's been so long since I saw you!! How's school?
me: none of the things that once excited me make me happy anymore i'm living off caffeine and anxiety i'm paralyzed by my future my diet is trash and my body is slowly rotting but otherwise i'm good hbu

Tuesday / 315,868 notes

sleepykokiri:

being a low-functioning mentally ill person is exhausting.
i am constantly embarrassed about my actions. i “overshare” and make people uncomfortable when i am just trying to make conversation. i always feel guilt for failing to meet social standards for what mentally ill people should act like.
it doesn’t help that i am constantly held to the standards of other mentally ill people that are high-functioning. i constantly feel like i’m exaggerating, that i’m cringe-worthy, that i’m worth less because i don’t act in a way that makes my illness acceptable to neurotypicals.
low-functioning mentally ill people deserve validation and respect too.

Tuesday / 1,416 notes

sleepykokiri:

having bpd makes me so overly-empathetic, to the point it causes me so many problems in my day to day life.
like, i can’t be around more than a few people without being overwhelmed with emotion. i can’t be around pretty much anyone for too long without being overwhelmed with emotion.
i can read people so easily it’s actually exhausting, because i can just feel everything they feel. it also causes me to give pretty much everyone the benefit of the doubt when trying to assess their situation, and it makes being decisive really hard.
i feel everything all of the time and i’m so tired.

Sunday / 819 notes